Sometimes you’re just in the mood for Luther.
Michael Kiwanuka - Bones
I guess I would leave this world alone
cause without you I’m just bones.
I hoped his album would sound this good. So so good.
My best thoughts often show up when I listen to music. In this particular instance, I was bumping this Jill Scott debut again and thought “the likelihood of me meeting someone here who has any idea how damn good this album is ranges from slim to none.” That thought depressed me briefly.
It’s not even about a lack of relations. It’s bigger than that right now. It’s about finding people who I can relate to in the simplest of ways. I try almost too hard to relate to other people. I think traveling and finding yourself in consistently awkward situations as an adult, has heightened my sense of curiosity that was always there to begin with.
It’s not about other people, but an inability to really understand what I’m supposed to do about it. I think it is just part of an evolutionary process that’s continuing to evolve. One of the things the past few years has been helpful for, is realizing what I’d do differently in situations if they arose and resisting the temptation to take even the most basic things for granted.
I used to think common ground was about liking the same tunes or finding someone who was a poor substitute for what I’d always imagined made sense. It’s not really about a caricature of a person that I think I’m looking for. But I don’t want to feel like I’m constantly trying to adapt something to fit a place it’s not meant to inhabit whether it’s me or someone else. I don’t think picking up and moving will change anything even if it were in the cards at this very moment. And I think there’s a penchant to try to make fetch happen that I’m also avoiding.
But it doesn’t change the fact that I’m souring on the routine, because there’s a real lack of the kinds of energy that keep me going. It’s akin to running a race where no one is watching. You just have to like running to keep motivated in that kind of forest. When I wrote that, I felt like there was a different kind of punchline but as I end it now, I realize that maybe that was the lesson along.
I feel like there’s a middle ground somewhere, it’s just a matter of finding it.
Alabama Shakes - You Ain’t Alone
I’m not going to stop nagging you all to listen to Alabama Shakes. It’s better than what you’re listening to right now, I promise.
Ben Westbeech - The Book
Babyface - When Can I See You (Again)
Since we’re on a throwback kick…
Tracie Spencer - Tender Kisses
It’s amazing the songs from your childhood that randomly pop in your head.
Jon B. - They Don’t Know
Mary J. Blige - 25/8
